brittdevitt

when when tears form and the memories wont die when my heart aches and everything is a lie when my hope fades and words arent enough when my soul yerns and the pain is too tough when my mind is confused and my body is weak when my spirits are torn and i can barely speak when im dying insdie and no one seems to care when im ready to lose hope and no one is there... who do i turn to? who do i turn to when the one who dries my tears the one who calms my fears the one who always cares.... is no longer there.

Heart My heart is confused by a mixture of feelings I didn't know I possessed. Indescribable feelings That make me sorrowful, And cause me pain. Unexplainable behaviors Take over my mind, body, and soul. Strange behaviors That I cannot comprehend with. Happiness is just a dream. A long awaited dream, That I fear Will never come true. Confusion and bitterness Is all that's left. I want to cry so hard, But my heart hurts so badly That no tears will come. When will this end? Maybe soon, maybe not. But I know one thing for sure: No one could possibly know How much hurt there is inside me.

Flaming Soul I see the fire in my soul It's burning deep inside me. The flames are strong and powerful As is my love for you. The fire stays lit From night to day. It spreads rapidly and soon My whole body is consumed. Inevitably, now there is no turning back. The force is too strong. The light enflames my soul To the point of no return, yet not regret. So bright and vivid Yet unique.. My body knows not what to do Or what to think. This feeling of love That the flames endure will stay in my heart forever, I am sure.

One Simple Mistake The emptiness settles around me; For I have nothing left to hold onto. Sadness escapes my body and clouds my thoughts; The emotions flow. Like a river So deep and to the depths, Is my hearts content. Like quicksand dissolving into an oblivious nothing, I am fading. Like rock solid and strong, I am no more. Everything fades into a careless notion. All bliss and joy is gone.. Here lay the remains of a deeply saddened heart. One simple mistake Can destroy the utmost of spirits. One simple mistake Can drive a person to the point of insanity, with no signs of return. One simple mistake.. and of me, the

I want I want so badly To unleash the truth Buried inside me, That's so tightly concealed within. I want so desperately To admit my thoughts And end the confusion, By hiding my feelings for you No longer. I want more than anything To hold you close, And feel your arms enclose around me As you gently kiss my cheek. I need so badly For you to love me, And feel for me So deeply as I feel for you. I need so desperately For you to tell me you love me, And make me realize That I'm not simply dreaming. I need more than anything For you to take me in your arms, And tell me I'm the only one You want to be with. I need you T

How Much You Mean To Me So deep and pure Is this love I have found. This feeling in my heart Is so entirely unexplainable, And impossibly expressed through words. Tingles escape from my body and soul And flow as if an endless ocean, As you enter the room. Do you realize yet how much you mean to me? At the thought of your presence, My heart skips a beat, And blissful joy Takes over my mind. As I glance your way I realize the power you posses over me. At time when you are near, I feel as if my hear is compelled to melt. Do  you realize yet how much you mean to me? Finally I've found the one Whom I truly adore, And I simply

TOO GOOD FOR YOU as i sit here, my mind wonders. my thoughts drift off to memories of you. we shared so many experiences in the amount of time we were together. i remember good times though, few there were.. i remember the fights and how you always got so jealous. at times i got so frustrated. you wouldn't even listen to me. when i speak, i wanted you to listen. instead you rambled on about how wrong i was, and the fact that i was at fault. it broke my heart the way you treated me. and i now realize, that i was way too good for you. i was too good for your lies... too good for your jealously... and too good f

UNWORTHY worthless; unimportant; undesirable.. words that portray the state of being in which my mind holds the perception of my ownself. i am useless, just plain stupid... i am nothing. such a fool, how could i be? what the hell was running through my God forsaken head? why did the taunting feeling take over my mind so diligently? what powerful radiance came over me to cause me to commit such a senseless act of betryal? why would i subdue myself to such nonsense? why did i take advantage of the one whom i so dearly love? one conclusion comes to mind as the answer to all these questions. my conclusion acknowledges th

as i sit here pondering my whole 14 years upon this earth, deeply examining past thoughts and feelings, i wonder what its really for...? do i even serve and kind of purpose? it seems as if no one ever noticed how truly lonely i was.... how i hid the real, true me deep inside for no one to see. which way would be the best to end it all? long and full of suffering or quick and less painful? i decide that ive suffered too much already and go with the quick and "easy" way out. people will call me coward, i know. "she was never strong enough," they will say. too bad they  have no idea what type of pain and suffering ive been throu

lonely heart . lost and scared . afraid to face another day all by myself. silently waiting . watching . for that special someone who will make my heart blissful .. . ... never lonely again ..